It is all over my head.... But still I trust...

Sorry guys I haven't type much these days, It is not that I have nothing to share, I think of a lot things happening in my life. It happen weeks ago... in fact time and time again, I kinda not movie to do much, found myself reading the Words, but fall asleep. Talking to God but being driven away~ This is not so good, that's how I feel... ummm tiring Lol I started school and there is so much work need to be done, I only end up working one day a week.... OH WELL, sound like there is a lot of negative Lol It is so easy to driven away if you off focus from God. The laziness of school, the dis-unity with people, the struggle with mind-set, oh well, I will go forever... But the Words of God told me to trust, he point me to worship, in times I don't "feel" like it, in times I never think I "could"...He could~ He is Here~

When all the music fades, sing from your soul...
Put your trust in me… Trust me...
Close to listen and I will give you Faith...
Call out to me... and I will listen…You will be my people...
And I will be your God, the Mighty One of Heave!
Lift this up, over all the worries, all the wearies…

Hear my confession my Lord, my Saviour…

This sound of worship, this sound of faith... I bring to you!!
Is for you, is all for you~ you alone are God.
Speak to my soul, this burden soul~

Free me from prides and evil desires…
Let my heart be still… rescue my soul…
In times of darkness let me sing to you
Forever I will sing, forever I will sing~

There is time I go through some hard time with my walk with God, and it really harder on me. I really thank all my friends here, they bring such encouragement to me, keep trusting me, and willing to see me growth.... Thanks for the church, I realize that joy to just be in the House of God...not about the music, not about how we see~ But it is about bring faith in this place...this place fill with the present of God… let my heart be still, let my soul be still, to worship, to really worship, to seek God face to face, have that encounter with God, only by His Grace, only by his blood… let us not boast in anything. There is time I found myself being so silly to boast about what I have in life, I never think pride is an issue to me, but it is…

God’s Will is over everything. When you’re pride, God show you how to be humble. When you’re weak, God lift you up. When you are dry, God fill you Living Water… Time and time again, God show me, God show me how to humble… In times of brokenness, God show me mercy… It is at that Cross I realize how small I am…and how big He is… … always remembering the cross, I have that clean picture how Jesus took up the cross before me… it seem so fair, knowing where he is going… knowing why he have to go… knowing how he think of you and me… knowing how He Loves you… never off focus of the Cross!!

The people I meet outside the world, they all have different stories. And it doesn’t really matter if they’re believer or not, homeless people, people on the train, bus, going to work, off from work…I talk to them… I believe God can use all the people and things for good…for His Purpose. I remember the time I feel so down… broken inside, and how I struggle by myself…I got to meet these people, people with real needs… I realize this is a heart God given to me… no matter how broken I am… I can not deny the need of other people… these are the people really need someone to care for… they need people to listen to them… Hear their stories… Once again I came out my “little world”… once again I talk about God with them, once again I pray for them… Even in times I feel I have nothing… I have nothing but this little faith… Still Love, still forgive~ It doesn’t matter how you feel Andy… it is not about you… Hold on to it, take off my pride, and take off my comfort-zone… Really learn to do it with Love, with Love!!!

I wanna to talk about trust here, I think it is important to trust other people, trust in the work they do, trust in the hard time, trust in the Lord who can overcome the hard time... Time and time again through out the old and new testament, people being test, and the Godly will always be there~ Think of me I'm not really very obey, I didn't stay home much *with my dad *, I didn't commit to the Words much...I haven't done much with the Lord, the more ashamed would be few months ago, when my friend asked me, “How is your relationship with God now?” The very fact that I can’t answer, I struggle… I don’t know if I really close to God… I feel cold… not good, so I talk to God again… well for those have been there, knowing to trust God… Believe in your heart God will rise you up, it is in your heart that you believe, and justified, and with your mouth that you confess, and saved. (Romans 10:10) Trust in God, and His Words will line up with you. Really trust Him with Love, passion, all of you!!!