End of Yourself... Begining of Grace

Friend, just something I found myself facing over and over again... in the time of troubles
Jesus said in Matt 10:37-39

"Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; 38 and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it."

I truly believe I had go through the season... of confusion I would say. I confess me being the person losses his life, but I found myself being the person who keep his own life. A lot of doing, doing... "what if, what if," or even "confusing myself" I found myself following the law, but silly enough to doubt lots.... What happen to me?? What is wrong with me?? I found myself knowing God *or talking about God more then knowing God*...the other day, doubting God *seem like nothing happen at all...*But somehow I still speaking of His Grace... that I found myself caught in the middle. That's not a pretty side.... the very truth you can not do both... on the other words... there is no life in following the laws, or not believing in the Son... the truth life is only offer through the finished work of Christ!

I don't know if anyone of you done that, I found myself caught in the middle... Grace & Law...very middle... Even I speak very "constantly to myself" I'm saved by grace, I trust in Christ and his finished worked. I found myself on the other hand... trying hard to do my own christian thingy... tried hard and hard... Facing brokenness and sorrows.... Minds is everyway... God speak to me through a book written by Joseph Prince. One of thing he point out is that, There is no middle ground between Grace & Law! You can not have law but have grace, you can not have grace but have law! I found myself driven to my "own god" with mixture of grace & laws.... that's not god at all!!! Shamefully I had done that many times...

The bible said, "There is no one righteous in the sight of God..." NO ONE can keep the Law. The law's job is to show the fullest of your sins... bring you to end of yourself.... and it point to Grace- Jesus! Yes, Grace is Jesus! It is Him and ONLY in Him you found Grace! A real relationship with a real God! When you came to end of yourself... there you will find Grace! Jesus had died on the cross, for you & me so God is no longer angry with us... ALL you sins- past, present, even further sins had been forgiven and washing away by His blood. On that cross, it is FINISHED. Praise God for Salvation, when none of us derserve His attention at all... He had came to us and show kindness to us! I started to SEE again. Speak the truth again. Knowing His Love agian! Christianity is NOT rules that we follow, it is NOT what we do, it is NOT what god we "think" or even "can" worship. It is not "WE" It is HIM, It is CHRIST!! Christianity IS Christ. IT IS A PERSON, friend! He come, He died, He DONE it ALL!! It is not about doing, doing, it is DONE DONE! That's wake up to listen the truth! Church, we have to SPEAK the truth. The world is "trying hard " to take that out of content, keep point back to rules, laws... religions. But the Truth point us back to Grace, back to Jesus when it is DONE DONE!! We MUST stand strong with what we believe! Come back to Grace friend, where You & I can trust Him again, receive ALL that he had for us. Take up that Cross again!! Finish the Race!!