Love & Devotion~

I realize I’m so easy to fall, get up again… fall again… thousand times I failed… But still you’re here. You’re still my friend. Nothing had changed… it doesn’t matter how I feel really… just like the beginning… it is about You… this story of life is yours. The theme is Your Love…It is your Love came into my life…It been amazing ride eh~ And we should ride on!! You’re my good friend… your passion overtake me… surrounding me. Amazed me… breaking me… comfort me. And I found myself caught in your grace… ya even there are dark times in life… I look to you and there is Hope. Final Hope… no one can offer… you make a way for me… for Andy… as you saw me at that dark place, you set me free from evil…from voices in my head… from questioning… from the heavy of the world. I found myself lost in myself, but when it came down to your Love…I’m sure, I’m clear.At that cross I declare you are Love… Overall your presence is all I seek… where I belong!

Before Jesus went on the cross, he told his friends that to love & serve on another. To be honest, I always feel like changeling to serve… I always prayer to God that I could have that heart of servant… not by what I done… but because of who you are. Pride is a big issue to everyone I think. To me ya… my good friend here told me Love can break down pride. Perfect Love cast out fears…the Love of God is all we need. Do not force yourself to love because you don’t have it. It really remain me…Andy you don’t have it and you can’t give it. To be honest we try so hard to love the people we close to… but we feel dry out so easy… caz this love doesn’t’ come out us. We have to look to the SOURCE of LOVE. The Words said God is LOVE. Yes…He is Love. No one can offer such great love. Just few days before Easter I was walking down the street *it is like 10pm at night lol* I don’t think I feet the best that night, well I still trap in the stress and confusions I guess. But I fall into God’s presence… understand that’s where we belong…yes, the weary is gone… safe in His Hand. How Great is our God! That’s where I found strength to go on… where I found a way to Love again… to sing out where the World is silence… Ya, because of Him I AM! So go back to the story Lol I was walking on the street… and I saw this man lending side the wall. I was wondering what he doing… so I kinda ask “You okay?” And he look at me and said. “why do you ask me….?” I was like… just wanna to see if you need some help. I realize he is kinda of drunk or sth. So he point at me and ask “You Christian?” That’s shocking…ummm Ya I’m a Christian I said. And for the next minutes, he keep asking me “Are you a Christian…I’m a Christian too…” on and on I don’t know what to do really… I’m afraid…fear of what I’m doing… it is at that moment I shake his hands… there is something shocking to me…. Isn’t that how Jesus came to the poor? Lower yourself Andy… to serve and came to need of others. Oh well, I told ya… the rest is crazy as I go on… I was looking for a restaurant or sth caz I haven’t eaten anything much. So he show me one. Turkey Local Restaurant… they speak some languages I never got it Lol He buy me food & drink… *I was gonna to pay for that but he strongly disagree* And he ask me if I drink wine? I said no really… I don’t drink. He said little wine is alright… well sure it doesn’t really turn out that way. So he bring me to bar and buy some beers. Oh well… the last time I had beer is like seven years ago…and I never wanna to try again…it just taste so bad Lol But this time I take a bit… And he sit down at the gambling machine and start playing it… Across my mind is like… this is not good at all…What am I doing really? Here is the voices… you’re crazy… why would you wanna to do with anything with this man? But the Holy Spirit speak back Lol *Good Game guys Lol* You gonna to love him, you gonna to do what ever it takes to show him love…For I had show you Love… Yes…as Jesus said to his friend before he leaves the world… You must Love on another. Love is not an options…it is a commandment~ so ya, I keep remaining myself do it with love…yes don’t let anything come into your heart…guide your heart…fix your eyes on Jesus. Perfect Love cast out Fears…. I found that that’s what it need here… I stay with this man caz he invited me so…*ya pretty crazy* He saying a lot of stuff I don’t really understand… all I take is he saying… “ Don’t leave me… I’m a Christian too…” I think that’s how Jesus take… not on how much we done wrong. He doesn’t focus on that, but compassion toward us. I think that’s what I do. I spend time with this man I just meet on the street and even stay over-night~ You’re crazy Andy Lol

The man named Davron. He lives in a bible college*used to be Lol right now just for rent* So ya, pretty nice place... He shows me some pictures and stuff… his family and tennis picture? He seems like tennis, he also shows me his picture on the poster, and he said he’s a professional tennis picture… I really don’t know about that. It will take it yes… I think he is. He show me his baptism certificate… it was last month.. Not long ago… somehow I kinda of know what he going through… myself had been there… not that I know him, but I know what’ he overcoming… He like music and dancing… I just random dancing with this man I know in one night Lol Oh well… I got to know this guy and I went to bed Lol yeepers I’m too tired… long day~ I pray for him, and I woke up in the morning… I said to Davron that I got to go back to school~ He seem okay… more clean in speech. I pray for him… It had been amazing journey knowing more people in life… I thank God for his grace to show people’s love and devotion… to do his Will, to offer love to people~

*Please pray for Knowing God & His Love toward us