Casting Crowns- East to West

Firstly I got to say sorry to all the people been reading this blog... I haven't write much in the past few months. Ha I got no excises, I been wondering around, little by little I find myself far from God. And each time Church sound like a place that delight my faith... here I'm not saying that's not what church family for. But really there is something I should of know. I'm refusing to accept that I been wondering around. I know how people had worried about me... I see the confusion rising in my mind. I don't know... how to express that. I talk to God... I'm trying to hold on to what I know or once know... That's all I know... I keep reaming myself. Why is it so hard to do it. Why do I still fall back to this... When I know how much you love me... I want to be where you call me to be Lord. I want to dwell your place. I really want to express what my life is about... I surrounding this to you again... I confess this life is about you. It was, it is and it will always be about you....

This is the new song by Casting Crowns, one of my favor Country Style Worship there. The songs they wrote had been really be an inspiration to me. This song East to West spoke of my session of life... when my mind go on to wondering... question rising around.. but still Jesus had not change his Love for us... His mercy reaches from East to West

Here is the Lyrics... And link if you want to listen to it http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=144825393

Here I am Lord and I'm drowning, in Your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me, I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind
Keeps me awake tonight
I know you've cast my sin as far as the East is from the West
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From You leaving me this way

Chorus:
Jesus can you show me just how far the east is from the west
'Cause I can't bare to see the man I've been
Rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'Cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins
Endless reminding of my sin
And time and time again
Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
from You leaving me this way

I know You've watched me whine
Turn my darkness into life
I need Your peace to get me through
To get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel
About the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You
But You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me