Forrest Gump

These days I feel kinda sick...I’m afraid I got a cold or sth…well that’s what happen when you try to swim at windy night and then stay up watching movies until 4 a.m. Lol yep...not very smart~ But we did watch a good movie- Forrest Gump and it is such an amazing story to me. I heard about his movie before but I never really got to watch it, my friend Steve is really into movie, film making and stuff.. I can tell why he said this one of his top lists. The whole story is about Forrest as a story teller, talk about his life, the people he meet, the historic event, and how he can change other people’s life. It is really inspiring story and I agree with Steve saying, “The movies nowadays is all about shooting, violence, sexual and computer stuffs…is like following what people demand, but this one is different… it really make you to think after the whole movie…Tom Hanks as Forrest in the movie is such amazing actor and he can bring you to the same journey to what Forrest been through… It is amazing you can find yourself in part of the movie…Hey that’s me, I been was like that, I done that before… ya we all did… I think Forrest is such a Godly man, he is always loving God, loving his mama and Jenny his best friend… He is a very simple man but very significance~ Everywhere he go, there is a new story…the way he deal with life, people is amazing…I pretty much buy the whole movie and watch it one more time Lol Since I’m sick and nothing much to do Lol

Nicky Cruz

Nicky Cruz is here at Sydney...

I never really heard of his story until Tahiti told me about it...Nicky had a bad childhood and he become a gang leader back to the old days in New York... David Wilkerson who is a country preacher came to him and show him about Love....*He is the guy started Teen Challenge* , Nicky found Jesus and his life had changed… right now as an international preacher, his ministry reach out to youth people all around the World… and this time he is coming to Sydney Australia, so I went and listen to him. His story is such amazing, powerful testimony. I like how he speak about forgiveness, how amazing is God’s mercy, and his unfailing love through his story.

Come and Listen…

*Sorry for the late update Lol* I haven’t been typing since summer retreat Lol oh well, that’s sound like long time ago… So ya, a lot of things happening but sometimes is hard to put all these in words… I’m trying here Lol

Come and Listen…

My journey to Sydney, Australia so far…

One more week…and it would be the fourth months I been in Australia…I found myself in this new place, a bit similar to first time to Canada…I’m not “so surprise” with the new environment…” I don’t know how to put this in words…I remember the time…how I want to go to Canada so bad…my mind refuse to go because I’m “afraid” that’s what God told me to do… *That was the time I still argue with God*, but on the other hand I knew in my heart there is something “calling” me to go… I knew there is something draws me near… God is faithful and he had showed me the way *what I need* in Canada…But now again, the whole trip coming to Australia, of caz it is different to have God in my heart, one thing remain same is that…. Here I am... my mind don’t really wanna to come, ya I’m fear of changing, fear of moving again, for those heard of my story I was plan to I want to stay in Canada, I was so disappointed that I didn’t get to do what I want*, I want to go to bible college… I want to work for the school; I want to start a youth group… I want to, I want to….

“Quick Andy comes to Australia” my grandma said. I heard these all the times at the time I was in Canada, and to be honest I don’t like it… I rejected them twice, *two years high school in Canada* I knew sure God was showing me something here in this two years, I “never so sure” I want to stay!! Surely God had a purpose for me~ As I always think the door to Australia should be shut well, I try so hard to shut it Lol *My grandma told me if I don’t go the first year I might not got to go...fine I don’t care lol” But still it come back to me, I just don’t want to go. I got plans* here God, it is all over my head, college… youth ministry… Western… *I knew there is personal reason* But one thing I can tell by the Holy Spirit is my dad, I remember the one time I phone him*during the high school year, and I was going to tell him I’m not coming to Australia this year*…it is like since ages since I seen or talk to him…so ya I can’t really notices his voice…. I don’t really knew what to say but I think I knew is that I got to tell him personal this time… to tell the true I never really hate my dad no matter how he sound like a “loser” to other people from all the things he done, but I dislike the way it is always my grandma*my dad’s mom* speak for him.. the whole Australia thingy was ask by my grandma, I had no idea what’s the real story like, and I was not interest in finding that out, I did tempted to…but still not a good idea*save me from the fire of judging*

So ya I told him I find something important here, and I can’t come this year… he asked me what is it, I told him I find Jesus, and I knew there is something more to see here. The moment I remember start talking about God, church, and all the things with him, he seem had a lot of questions*In his heart I knew* That’s the thing… there is something place in my heart… something I can not put away… something only the Spirit know… the very same thing been spoken in the story of Jonathan while he fighting the battle against far more enemies… but he said… “We will fight… maybe the Lord can do something here” It sound little not sure…but to me is like full of faith… I don’t know if I really had that heart…

Back to Hong Kong

I went back to Hong Kong for the summer, and that’s like the beginning of my long summer time~ Well, it been two years time since I leave this place… it was like a dream- the class line Lol The Hong Kong International Airport is still I miss the most. It was kinda funny my mom couldn’t notice me*she said I’m too dark…* Sitting on the double bus…feel kinda wired…night at Hong Kong…. Just 40 minutes same so long to me… I remember that was the time of the World Cup, and it was kinda funny….my mom and sister both following soccer game… how amazing is that Lol Well, I don’t really know what to say… a lots had happen but mostly is my spiritual walk here…. I knew I been given a new heart, new vision…so I seen things differently with Hong Kong…everything on it… I used to dislike this city… I don’t know what make you good living in a city like this… well, everywhere I go, people with real needs… on thing I’m sure of… I’m not a city-boy at all Lol Well, things had changed…everything is different, so different Lord….

Oh Lord you been good to me,

You’re my shepherd,

Leading my way…

You knew my path,

Guide me with your words…

You understand my fear,

Mercy shall fall on me…

Your thought is like no other,

Your way is higher than ours…

I do not know what the further holds…but I do know who hold the further.

It been amazing journey and I got to share my stories with my mom and sister… Think it back I don’t know if that’s the best I can do but truly that’s the closest talk I get to them, it is all about my stories I got to share here…but that’s good enough, somehow I got to know more about my mom again, the stories behind her life… I knew my sister is a strong father role as a father to me, but still there is a time of comfort she really need…. I knew, I spoke, try it over and over again… even I really bad at my home language… even most the time I don’t want to talk at all…I want to share so bad in my heart… and this is the time, I had that moment and I try to hold on to it…. My mom is not likely want me to stay with my dad, I tell her I forgive me to go to Australia, I forgive my father, and I wanna to go and show him about Christ…to my mom this is silly thing to do, she doesn’t think my dad can change and what I did is like…what she tried to do in the past…But this time is different, not by mighty, not by Power, but by His Spirit!! This time is different for God is with us…So ya, here I’m, Sydney Australia~

Living with my dad

I remember the first time I seen my dad again..it is like, wow…is he really that short Lol I’m just joking…but well, I don’t really know what to start with… I got to know about my dad and the family here… My dad is so true from what my mom said…and time and time again, I’m try to talk to him, about God, about family…It doesn’t really what I expect…to be honest, it is disappointing…my dad is like a blindly man, not seeing anything… he “make up” every stories I don’t like… He has done things without asking… more and more… I realize to myself…this is not working…I can not put anymore judging here… The Spirit is willing but I must renew my mind, God’s forgiveness is eternal, it is not that’s He forgive your one thing, He forgive your everything. from the inside out. How wonderful is that? His grace had made us right with him, and it is not that his grace only good enough to cover our sins…His Grace is more than we can think of…He grace is far more than our mistakes…our failures. His Grace is eternal!!! It is a test of forgiveness, a test of my personality…. How can we be forgiven by not forgiving others…we can’t~ And we must forgive on another other!! I found myself to the point finding the pride in me… the pride I always deny it, the pride I found myself while I serve, while I talk, while I read the Words…while I talk to my family…it is not very pretty I would say, sometime I find a hard time to lower myself to talk to them… and I knew that’s not the Lord calls me to do… It is hard to say anything at home, caz it is like death silent all the time…I’m so thankful for my half sister, she is such a joy here… I can’t imagine the house without her there… well…sometimes it is kinda loud Lol but I realize times and times again…. Jesus said, we being like little children…well I had a whole lot to learn from her Lol Learn to be humble…Learn to be build up Godly confidence, so much more here to learn… More and more…The Lord is leading me to that place…the place of worship~

We gather here…

The Hillsong Church is an amazing place; I had learned a lot of things from the people I meet, the encounter with God here. I remember the first time I went to PowerHouse, One of the youth service here, I went up the front stage… I asked, “Lord…why am I here…” I never knee down in the front of people, and that moment I remember I know… “At this cross, this knee should bows” I understand the mind of Worship is being yourself to the worthy God. By His grace… only through his grace and mercury we can come to that place… Hearing the Words of God, sing the Songs of Praise… and my respond is to worship. Time and time again, more and more again, I started to realize what really all this about…is It is all about Him, no one can made this happen, not by mighty, not by power, but by His Spirit!! To be honest I’m amazed by how people from all around the world come just to seek him… we gather here, we sing songs, we dance, I used to think all the people there seem so “happy”, so “joyful”… everyone seem okay… but more I get into people, I realize… how much it really “cost” for us to come here in this place… so much broken inside, so much need, need for this Savior, the Redeemer of our life~ You never knew every things about other people, but thank God he knew everyone of you~ I started to understand what’s Jesus talk about if you hold on to life you gonna to lose it, but for him you will find life, pick up the cross and follow him~ So much more I learn about God, I used to ask so many things from God, but now I know there is more than a pray to myself, caz we do not live this life for ourselves but to Him~

View of Prayers

Hey friend you should look up to Paul’s prayer sometimes…compare to ours…it is like bows away to me… I found myself often pray about things like… Oh Lord saves me, oh Lord gave me confidence, oh Lord oh Lord… But Paul understand the Power of Prayer, and what’s most important, see praying is not about “you”, it might start with “you” but it had always and will be always about Him, about God... isn’t that make us think about how we should pray… Paul prayer we can have a better understand of the Words, knowing God, loving God~ Prayers is powerful, and I know sometimes I put this as “things” that I do than really putting heart into it… I realize how I should prayer…knowing who you are as God’s children, knowing the Power of the Holy Spirit drew in you… so now you have something to give…now you pray, by his grace, by his mercy we can ask, and it will be given to us… How wonderful is that? One of the most important is we seek not just because what we will get…not purely seeking him… For who God is~ It is beautiful, that’s what prayer about I think….