Truth Forgiveness~

We were forgiven, and we're call to live a forgiving life~

To forgive one an other...I think that's really important part of our Christian wallk. Through the grace of God, I am forgiven, and now I can live a life of freedom~ How amazing is that? How great is that? Don't you want to be free? Free from everything that hold you back? Freedom that no one can given to you.... no one but Him~ Yes, it is only through Jesus...only through his Grace that we can be free.

"No one can come to the Father but through me..."

I think it is so hard for me to forgive sometimes, to some people in life...it is just so hard...so impossible to me~ But every time... yes...every time I know how I been forgiven, I know how he had find me~ Yes, it is God that show us how to forgive, just as Christ died on the cross for us...that's truth forgiveness~
Jesus did not said he you have to be a "good" guy first, then I will save you...he didn't said you have to do "something" then I will do my part... Don't we like that sometimes… At school we heard something like "Ohhh No I'm not saying sorry, not until he come to me first~" *Back to the high school memories Lol* That's not truth forgiveness.. Because you can not "earn" it, you can not change it, in fact, you have no choice there, it is given to you~ Yes, This forgiveness is given to you freely... Because we were forgiven, through His amazing Grace... Yes, "Since you're still a sinner, Christ had died for you" It is perfect, it is unchangeable, you can not add or take anything from it~ So why wouldn’t we accept it? Why wouldn’t you take accept this forgiveness? Don’t you want to be free? Don’t you want to be friend with God? It is given to you, no other reason, it is all because of His love for you, he want to see you smiling face~

Truth Forgiveness came from Christ, who had forgive not just you & me, but everyone of us~

Christmas Eve~

Well, I haven't really been trying these days and I feel like...I really miss it Lol Yeah these days were kinda hand around with my friend Gonzola, friend of Tahiti Lol He is a cool guy yeah, he really been a good friend to me, pretty much these days I spend most of time going to place to place...umm like Christmas Party~ Friday Night we went over to a house party, it was funny because by the end of the day I still don't know who's the owner of the house Lol To tell ya the true...this house is amazing big!! Oh well, I think that's one of the biggest I seen Lol I wondering how much it cost for a house that big Lol Anyway, it was fun meeting some new people, some good food yummm Lol I played pool, oh well.. it been awhile since I play a game eh Lol I'm getting good Lol Well, and I play a random soccer game with some guys, I end up playing goalkeeper again Lol But that's okay~ Well, fun time, and I spend my night over at Gonzalo's house. We did some Christmas shopping~ Well, a bit late for that Lol And oh well, it is pretty hard to get a parking there Lol I got most present there~ finally Lol But I didn't got the wrapping paper there Lol Well, I will find a way there, we went to the second Christmas party, it is at one of the church people house, and we have BBQ, we got a big big lamp I think Lol Some said is a pig...Lol It taste good, and I hav some fun time playing the board game with some new friends, good time~

Christmas Eve~ Well it was the Sunday for me and I got to the Spanish service, ya it was a bit fun to learn some Spanish Lol I got to know more about some of the guys from connect group eh Lol Gonzalo came over to pack me up and finish up the shopping again Lol And that's how half of my day goes Lol..following people shopping Lol And we all went over to the evening service..it was pretty amazing they got all the animals there *Like a real donkey Lol* I think that's the first time I seen a real donkey Lol Anyway, it was cool, a Son was born to us~ Let's celebrate together!! I think that would be important to remain all of us, what's really this Christmas about~ It is about the message of Jesus Christ, it is about he had come to us so that we might live~ Yes it is about his birth, so taht we might born again in his grace! So that's be glad, and give freely...for God had given his Everything!! It is such a night of joy, and peace!

I did phone my mom that night and we talk about how life goes, she went to Beijing for a trip..and she said it been fun going on a new place, she also hoping to look for some jobs...we talk about the condition here, well...most it is about the family issue and it been really hard on my mom & my dad..to me is like I seen like defending my dad I wondering how I can still do that really as I spoke to my mom, I know I want to forgive my dad, and accept me the way he is ...not by the past or how he said about me, but really uncondition Love as Christ did to me! But how hard for me, I just having problem putting into it, oh well, to me I think it really hard to love that in a condition like this, but I know truly in my heart that's the only way~ I know God saying to me there is no other way but loving others~ It is not that I want to be judge everything he done wrong...that will take forever to point it out~ But he is such a ...well it is sad he never speak the true~ I have this pray all the time, just love as you love me~ Time and times again...I pray this pray, I keep trying to change the way, and try to lend him to know what's Christ all about!

The night I knee down again, the night I want to be joyful, but I cry out a bit~ I just want to let people know about You Lord, how hard it will take to love? how hard for them to see your works? I praying for Salvation of Lifes, and Peace of mind and more the Born of the New King, I know it is not time to cry out for what I need here, but really just knee down to this King had come, for we don't have to cry out long...hope was lost, but now is find!! Rejoy with me here, let's not be down becasue of the World, It is the most wonderful time of the year!

Sunday Church

I remember just about a month ago, as I reading the church notices I found out there was an extension service at Merrylands *Where I live Lol* And more I found out there was in fact a bus going to the church building eh… Ohhh I’m like…come on~ I travel two month church and now I found out there is a service three blocks from my apartment and there is a free bus to church *Noooo I did not know that Lol* Anyway Lol I join the service, in fact that was the Spanish service Lol well there’s a lady translating for me, I have to wear a headphone Lol funny~ Well, it was cool about Spanish that their lips lol Well I have no idea what that means myself and do not ask Lol Anyway, they have that service on Spanish and they have a youth service in English so it was okay for me Lol I do know two people from there, the two people from the connect group, they’re both cool people~ The morning service was pretty great, speaking of changing eh~ It was good to be changing, in fact it is a life style to be changing. It was cool, as I learning more and more everyday… to be changing~ The youth service kinda small group but it doesn’t matter, the team was pretty great, I think I know one of the guy there~ A youth lady speaking, it was pretty amazing how well she can speak eh Lol "What is foundation you set for this summer?" Yeah~ summer time sound like a days of relax and easy to get lazy… but it is also a time to be more passionate about God, and building the rock relationship with Him. I think it is so important to build this relationship as a Christian, in fact it is all we’re about~

Second interview~

I got a voice mail on my cell phone and it was a guy asking if I wanna to go for interview~ *Hey Delight Lol* I think this is the second time for interview, I been about one week I think, it was at Blacktown I know that, but one thing I didn’t know is …hmmm what’s the name of the restaurant Lol Hey the fact that I hand out so many resumes and I don’t think I can remember all the names anyway… I just recharge my credits and I spent most of it just to repeating the voice mail Lol *Oh Andy Lol* Well well well, I got there early…giving out resume again, walk around…umm went to the library…one thing I know about the libraries here is that …you got to have different library card for different library… I got like five library cards Lol that’s pretty random… well, there is not much to do but finial I phone that guy to ask where the store is Lol He is busy parking, I’m busy looking for the store pretty funny~ Anyway I met this guy, he is pretty cool guy I would said. I think I talk to his father the first time I gave my resume. He said there are like 300 application form he receive and very few got interview here, and his father said there is something special he can see in me or sth Lol I didn’t know…special eh Lol me Lol~ Well, he talk about my dream, my works in High School and he also ask about three main questions, with serving, team work and out of service conditions~ *I’m like…that’s pretty cool question Lol* He said he will phone me back and tell me about the answer for interview~ Well, it was good to know him anyway, so here I start again, walking around the city, handing out resumes Lol I walk to the field and lying down their, it was pretty good day, and somehow I just wanna to fall sleep there~ The phone ring, and the guy said unfortunate about they want to hire people with more experiences, he said they have three people interview *out of 300~ ya I’m kind of good Lol* Well, he said it takes time to gain local experiences here and he understand that~ He wish me a great further Lol That’s alright, so go back to the walking again… keep walking~ Think about all, it is just cool to meet these people eh~ Lol

The Christmas Spectacular

The Christmas Spectacular was such amazing~ I invited my aunt and her two daughters to come and join the fun time. There were so many youth people there, we join together at the door, well… a bit late, but that’s okay, we went in the convention center. Oh well, I can tell they spend a lot of time putting all these together eh~ There is some kind of white stuff blowing from the ceiling Lol Better than no snow Lol Anyway, we got the whole room pack out, we’re sitting at the right wing of the top, it is okay view~ One of the things I didn’t know about is…as I look to the screen, it said "Christmas Carol"…hmmm so familiar with that…well, maybe…ummm *Hey we do that once at my High School Lol* OHH~ ic, I know that one~ The story about an old man eh, and how he dislike Christmas, through the story he start to realize the true meaning of Christmas… They sing some really classic Christmas, to be honest I really know Christmas songs Lol Well, I hear about every years in this season but I never really got to sing them eh, thankful there is lyric on the screen Lol* Come on Andy~* Well well well, they did a really good job overall Lol I really enjoying it, my aunt & the two girls like it too~

Overall as I fresh back to the memories of Christmas, it was kinda of a lonely day for me, I didn’t really celebrate much back home, maybe just walk around the city…where all the Christmas light around the tall buildings~ That’s sound like what Christmas to me for a long long time… I remember the first Christmas I spend in Canada… I stay with a sweet family from school for the break. They’re really nice people and love me as who I am~ I didn’t know much about the joy and true meaning of giving, as people give out their present in this season…what does it mean? I gave out present; I remember I gave the family a box of chocolate, oh well…that’s seemed like a long time ago I really gave something to people. I can’t even remember what I did the last Christmas before that… As they show me, I found out there is something more than that, to me is a long processing story~ We give, because this is the day God give his lovely son, his everything to the world so that we might have life. Such an amazing gift and that’s why we give in this season, we give freely to people just as God gave everything to us~ Now I understand…

Week review~

This week been amazing so far~ well…the same part is that I still haven’t find a job yet *hmmmm~* Tahiti went back home last Friday~ he been an amazing leader to me and I believe he will be the light back home! Just as usual I walk to the inner city to look for jobs, well…pretty much I been give out resume most of the possible place…ya I know I should try out for the clothing and stores too but I don’t think…*Well Andy you just got to try~ Lol* Come on~ Lol Well, several days ago, as I walking across the city river~ there’s a small shopping center there and I found out there’s a restaurant at the second floor Lol Well, well, well, I don’t think they’ll do~ keep walking Lol …And second later, maybe* walking back Lol* So ya, I said if I still couldn’t find a job in this area I’m trying an other area~ Well, I need to move close to the church anyway~ There is one thing keep coming to me in mind~ If I really move out, what will my dad think about this… Well, I said my prayer, God if you want me to work here in this area, if not please open door as I try other area, please guide my way here~ After that I walk in, and I found out it is a Japanese restaurant, I think it call "Vagamama", *later I found out it means naughty children in English* Well, I walk in the restaurant to the bar, and I ask the lady there~ But she said there is not really much available, but she told me to sign a form at the front table, and I walk back to the front table, and I waited there for awhile since there is ppl paying bills…as I look around the restaurant I saw one of the guy*sitting at one of the tables* he is waving at me, telling me to come or sth~ so I did, and he asked me if I want to order or something, well…I said I’m looking for a job here, so he asked me to take a sit...
I don’t think I know how to spell his name Lol* sorry guys Lol* Anyway, he is a chief here, and he been working here for two years time~ he ask me what position I’m looking for, I said pretty much any job available, I done some kitchen hand and serving~*I don’t know if that count for Western High School Lol* He ask me one question kind shock me~ he go straight and ask "What do I want to do for life?" for life...*you mean for life…very interesting there* Personally I don’t think nowadays employer care about that, most of people just care about how they can fill up their timetable and the money expresses… I said, "To be honest I want to be a youth pastor~* Like taking care of youth people~ Some many times I been telling people about this, but I think that’s the first time I said to people *outside of the church* and then he is so friendly and ask me if I eaten anything, I said ummm, so he order a soup noodles for me *That’s nice Lol, I like this guy~* I ask him about his job, he said he been doing that for so many years, that’s what his passion is…to cook~ It is coming up very fun, we talked about passion, dreams, how he dislike the restaurant *policy* is not longer about just food, or people came to here is not about cooking but just the money* People just make you to work to death and he doesn’t think that’s what we’re on Earth for… I said, np~ we’re on Earth to serve! I think that’s amazing he still keep his dream & passion, I know so many people they forgot or *even fear to carry on their passion* I ask him why don’t you open a restaurant yourself, he said there is too many restaurant out there, and theirs is no people support him, I said there is, if that’s your passion you don’t have to worry about people, they will come to you as you follow your passion….The food came, and I said a pray loud eh~ *I don’t even ask if he go to church or what~* And we both said Amen Lol Hey… very cool guy, he got to go and I gave my number and resume to him~ To me it is cool just to know him Lol
I walk around the river and talk to an other guy sitting alone there~ *Hey somehow I enjoy doing that~* Just talking to people, and sharing …when they really need someone~
Tahiti gave his contact group leader’s number to me* cell-group type thing* I kinda meet him before several times Lol His name is Gonzalo, he is one of the college student here~ *well, he is doing part time*

Do you know…. But still… You are Who You are~

They had rejected your words… But still you spoke the Truth~
They had laughed at your promises… But still you bring down Blessings~
They had blame at you… But still you show them Glory~
They had denied you’re the one… But still you’re place in the Highest~
They had mocked you… But still you’re Humble~
They had kept sinning… But still you keep Forgiving~
They had keep looking for loves…But still you are Love~

Wilderness… the quietness I came~

Rise up~ Keep trying again, I bring my resumes and walk around Paramatta in the past three days…I hand out like twenty resumes already * well as Tahiti said, you may hand in 100 and just got one reply…* And finally as I got a chance, as I try for a restaurant…yeah the Lonestar Restaurant people Lol* The country house~ I really like how it like place so I go for a try, and the lady ask me if I wanna to come for the interview~ I said "sure…" I walk out the door…You can’t believe this, she said interview Lol Wala wala Yeaahhha~ Come on *Come on Andy it doesn’t mean you will take the job for sure Lol* Well, at least there is something up since so long~ I count that as great success Lol Well…still keep trying~ I went back to the restaurant for the interview~ the manager named Paul, he is a cool guy~ ya I don’t really know wt to put down for payment I heard from ppl saying 13 per/hr is okay Lol well…even that sound like not really important as just working as the first job~ Andy is here just wanna to work Lol To tell the true I think I possible taking that job~ I still waiting for his reply Lol

Wilderness… the quietness I came~

These days I been out all day, walk all the way to Parramatta *about 40 mins walk* And sitting in the book store, ummm reading ya~ I don’t know why, but somehow I wanna to read Lol I finish two books, "The Messenger" *The same author as one of the book I read in high school year…umm "The Giver"and "Stormbreaker" in the first two days, they both good books~ I sit there until it close at 9p.m. and I walk all the way to the park I found and just talking to God there….later I found out an open field at one place so I spend the next two night talking to God there~ It was cool…I realize I have a pretty sweet voice Lol *oohhhhH Andy~* Anyway, it had been really hard time to me~ personally I think a lot of people, people back from Canada, some get down with faith, some get injured, some don’t seem happy with life~ So many needs there, and here beside myself~ There is two families here breaking down slowly…I realize how broken my family is~ this is not unchangeable…I been praying for the kids here~ some might know by now and start to realize, some might be still young to understand…ya~ this is not a family God given to people! There is a better way, I really don’t want this to happen~ I cry for them…I care for these people, it doesn’t matter how people see me what kind of silly person I am~ Caz I know~ those kids have life~ They’re living!! They’re not animal, they have their own feeling~ they’re pure and so many parent fool themselves, keep saying they’re too young to know, too young to understand…But I’m afraid it might be too late for you to explain after~ I don’t really know them all~ but I care…I do!! I know God does~ There is what’s all about me about to do~ This is the Passion In Me!! In the wilderness… the quietness I came… your voice calling over me~

Sunday Church~

Beside the part I got lost this morning at the city…Lol It been a really good day~ Today I went over to the City Campus…well, I would of find it early if I know there is like three streets named Young Street~ Lol ya I got the wrong one and I having a good time with the 700 meters morning walk Lol I finally got there at the very end of the morning service~ Well at least I made it to some of it Lol And I find some people I know from the boat trip before~ Oh…speaking of the boat ride I don’t think I had mention here, I went on a boat trip with the City Campus ppl before~ Friend of mine invited me to go~ It was fun, well…just the fact that I don’t dance that well Lol I mean deco type~ Funny story…Lol Well, the service end and I walk around the city area before the evening service start~ I spent most my time reading the bible at SUBWAY~ oh I think that’s in McDonald yeah Lol Anyway, that’s good time~

To serve, that’s how you learn to be great~

I remember he said, "If you looking for greatness you had miss the Kingdom~ For the Kingdom of God is not for those seeking to be great, but for those willing to serve~" That’s very true… as Jesus said, "No one is great~ only the Father is great~"
The evening service is great~ the Speaker tonight is such a impact to me~ *Ya…you realize I don’t good at memorize names Lol* He is from the States, and he been to one of the teams to New Orleans too *WCC friends Lol Well he talked about serving tonight~ As he start with how he want to be a preacher first time in his life… in the age of 18 he just become a Christian and he ask his home pastor if he can get involve with the church… "well…what do you want to do?" The pastor ask…and he just answered, "I want your place~" Lol that’s really interesting start I think* The pastor told him to show up on Saturday at 5 am and he will teach him how to preach~ well, for a youth boy… getting up at 5 am on a Saturday Lol That’s gotta be kidding~ Well, that’s what he did, and the pastor just hand him a bush~ "ya, cleaning the church…that’s how you learn to preach~" So, The next months time he been doing that and then he came to the pastor again, and the next thing is to teach the youth people, *truly is not very nice youth people Lol* Well, for an other months time he "take care" of these kids Lol He has no idea what’s he preaching *He don’t even know if that’s from the bible Lol* Well time pass by, the pastor ask him what you want to do now" He answer~ "Anything beside preaching Lol" Well…just a funny moment I wanna to share with you guys Lol But in the same way is true~ Jesus had came to serve us… we had came to him and serve~ There is no blood at the top of the cross, no one can be "greater" than that….there is blood coming down, so came to the bottom of the cross, where you can bow your knee and learn to serve~

Encounter day~

Hey Friends, sorry I haven’t been updating here for awhile Lol Ya~ I’m being lazy here~ oppps Anyway Lol It is really not that I have nothing to type out these days, ummm in fact there is a lots to say about it~ Well, Life should be full of joy eh~ I remember about that was last Friday night, that was the summer party night and Tahiti invited me to come *that’s my birthday gift~ha* It was a great time as far as I help a lady out to set up for the night and get free pass for the party~ The night full of youth people together…so amazing every time I think of it~ The speaker Christine Caine, she is a great youth pastor here, she travel a lot, across different nations…just amazing~ She has a really deep voice~ she talk about her childhood, it wasn’t easy for her people surround her didn’t show love to her~ her teacher, parent and other people reject her…teachers saying you are good student just you can’t always be the leader, parent doesn’t even want her, people saying she is not good enough to work with youth…See all these things had "killed" so many children’s life…. Your enemies keep telling you, "you’re useless…. you missed up…. you’re not value~ maybe your mate had rejected you and kill your life there… maybe your parent told you are nothing vaule….your mate had hurt you so deep that you never want to love again…" But here listen to the Words of God! The Good news is Here~ Caz as you listen closer, you will find you’re not longer nothing, and now you’re something~ You’re not longer missed up for you’re forgiven~ You had hurt~ But know the Words of God had bring healing to you~ Listen! Whose looking for the true Love which is everyone~ God loves you so much, you’re not an accident as your parent told you, you had been and always been the sons and daughters of God! You have a value as God see you his own children! Let’s rise up and run this race!

As a youth service, that’s the amazing moment to me~ just as so many young people came to Christ that night~ The night almost ends, and I been through some hard moment there…well most is my own fault…Well, again I didn’t think of the way back, and Tahiti is not so happy…well I know I been told so many times *I just went to church without a way to come back several times Lol…ya not so smart~* In the same time as I talk to Jonathan and Lois… Lois doesn’t seem so okay with me asking to stay over for the night, I think he had talk about this with Jonathan…well I know that’s not smart as Tahiti said~ I should be more organize… well, I don’t know really I live far from the church… and I doesn’t have a car, the bus and train line end so early and seem like I don’t know much people live in the area I’m staying…. So many times I try to find people but not turn out good~ specially on Friday~ Jonathan is not happy with me too… he ask me about if I have money at all, I said I don’t have much and he told me to get refund from the college application fee, I’m like…shock as he said that~ I ask why? He said so that I have money to spend * I’m little mad as I heard that, and the more he said the more I don’t feel comfortable…I didn’t really show I’m angry *I don’t know how~* Why? Why do I want to get that money back? I need to apply for college~ And for that moment seems hurt so much as Jonathan said "Is impossible Andy!! I’m kind of shock to see him get mad…well not really mad, he said he had done that myself, to rush to get to college and he has no money, and problem with his family *pretty much like me~* And he said I can tell you how that feel~ The more he said about that, the more I try to defend. I have no idea why I’m starting to get mad~ Maybe I wished to go to bible college for so long~ And it keep putting me down~ I just don’t feel good at all~ Tahiti came by as the conversation and he hear part of it~ I know all these people telling me things for good, I take a big breathe and I said apology to Tahiti…ya I’m not trying hard enough~ Later I feel sorry with that attitude toward Jonathan….
I end up staying with one of my friend from college, it is pretty much same building with Lois just different floor, well…we have some talk about this… I I know they all love me truly~ and I know why they said don’t see bible college as a college you go to~ never ever think bible college is easy caz is not going to be~ It is not just reading the bible or handing in homework… There is time you going to be test~ caz bible college is also finding yourself, well get to know yourself~ You’re training to be a leader in the same time you’re actually knowing more about yourself & God~ The very time*So many times…* I been asked~ Do you know what this choice about? Do really sure is bible college~ I don’t want to just answer it without knowing… I tell myself so many I’m reading to pay the cost *truly not just about money…* The cost it going to be hard, to change yourself, to be change~ Whatever it take~ Whatever it take to go to bible college…to find a job, to find a way…everything with one purpose~

The night I remember I’m not feeling good in between but as I clam and think~ I feel that need~ to confess, to pray to God…I know I don’t want to rush, caz that’s really what I learn in the past~ Every season will come together in the perfect time~ It is true I don’t think my mind set is ready for it? Well, what is it really? Confusing keep coming~ The night I remember I had phone my aunt…well, I think that’s how I call her, I still not sure how we related Lol Anyway, I have a call with her again~ same again the very need to spread the Words of God to people in need...even in time of not sure, not right…I’m doing it~ Lol I have a long talk on the phone *that’s in fact cost a lot of money for her* But it doesn’t matter here, I really hope she will understand…as the other question to most of the people, can you trust in God and other religions in the same time~ Well, my question to her is "Can you believe in God & the big-bank *is it how you spell it Lol I mean the expositive thingy* See you can’t, caz they are totally against each other~ The bible cleanly talk about "Worship your God and only Him!* To be honest here, sometimes doesn’t feel as good to talk about that topic~ In HK, we have a law like religion freedom eh~ "as most the people think it is okay to believe what I believe as soon as I didn’t have anything to do with other people." I used to think it is okay, but the more I learn the more I know why that’s not okay, this is first a matter of mind-set most the people hold, it is not okay~ Because there is a reason why it had mention in the bible…Worship your God alone~ The simple way Jesus said you can not serve money & God~ Worldly example you could say you can’t have a real good relationship if you have two wives. Ummm I’m not sure that’s a good example Lol Well I think you get it….the relationship~ God want to give you everything but you had not willing to take that~ How would you expect God to do anything in your life if you don’t even have a "mind-set" that would really happen? How can a relationship work without trust? It is really all this about~ the very same question been asked, caz so many people see as a religion way~ I don’t really enjoy the part it is not about religion, but just you & God~ Why would it so hard to let go… maybe we are so hurt that can’t even trust now~ God’s promise to bring healing, to bring hope…and there is so much more to see in life but people just refuse to see it~ fear to see it~ The whole night end with that pray with her, to accept Jesus come into her heart~ I thanks God for that chance and overall I’m glad for the day but there is still a decision to make eh ~ oh well…fall sleep right on the bed Lol *2 a.m. Lol*