Would you come with me?

After morning church, we stay around the shop before the evening service start again. Stephen and I went over have a coffee. We got to meet an old man, just so random Lol He works at the Zoo back to the city for thirty years long… he talk about some of his stories, the zoo, the music, the war… Stephen is from US so he kinda know wt’s he talking about, he don’t really want to talk about any thing deal with religions… well as we said, this is not about “religions” caz none of us believe in “religions” We invite him to join the evening service. The service started at 6pm, but there is already people waiting since 430pm, they’re using the whole convention center; other building and the city campus were all full. They’re putting it on the screen so three places happening together~ the old man did come, and I bring him to the front seat. *Stephen was serving for the TV team* So ya, a lot of people wow~

The night came with great passion Praise & Worship, it is such a moment, and Joyce gave her message, I couldn’t find my pen Lol*It is actually in my bag~* So I just try to pay attention there, the message is about staying amazed, ya~ As Christian, we going through the age when you don’t feel like going to church, you don’t see as amazing as you first follow God… you might not feel singing or praying, ya we’re easy to get “used to” it~ So it is so important to stay amazed, stay passion with God, with all your heart~

At the very end of the service, I asked the old man next to me… *He was like the only one sitting down there…that was the moment you can make your choice and accept Jesus in your life, so I ask him “Would you like to come out with me?” He just wave at me *I can tell there’s tears in his eyes* I said again, “If you want to…I can walk you through to the front…I really believe God had spoken to him~ And had that impact in his heart too~ But he still doesn’t want to stand up…well, that’s okay* I never know this man, but I think I had done what’s to be done* After the service he said he really interest with the guy play in the band, I do knew him, His name Rolf…. I phone him and he chat with this old man~ He said he really thanks for the night, and he invite us to come by the zoo* where he work* sometimes again~

I think it is always good to mean new people~ to keep our eyes open, and “maybe” the Lord can do something in these people’s life through you~ I pray this old man will come to Christ someday~

As I walk into eternity~

As I walk into eternity...
I know I’m not belonging to this world…
As I walk with God, I find out the fresh had to dying…

This is truly not a pretty thing…
I had fall into so many things, I been truly been tested~

To be honest with you all... I’m not really anything “Holy Person”
I’m nothing…without God!!
No one is Holy… and no one can be “make” Holy without God~
God is Holy, and as people of God we “set-apart” from the world so that we might live a “Holy-Life” through His Grace!!

I was sitting at the church service this Sunday, and Joyce Meyer is speaking~ Yeah some of you might know her, she is kinda “famous”…well, that’s what my mind-set before the service opps Oh well I got to tell you, I’m so much “impact” by the message tonight, just so much more to “work on”…so much more to enjoy this journey let’s said Lol

Years ago, I used to think I wish to be like “Half-like” Jesus…that would be great~
As I found him, I know there is a way as he promise…There is a way I can be “Set Free”~ But to me it doesn’t start the way I expect I would say…I got to tell you while I got baptized, the decisions is made because there is “too much” for me to take it~ and I can only lend on God now, so I did it~ I do heard of the meaning of baptism, you know all the “good things” going happen to you…ya I used tempted to have kinda mind-set like that, but the more I follow God, the more I understand there is so much more than that!! It took me “awhile~” to understand what it is truly means to be “dying in the fresh...” The desire of the fresh is not from God… and it longs for worldly things… money, pride, selfishness, self-center…all of the things that keep you from knowing God, ya~ Your heard that before…the Spirit is willing but fresh is so weak~ Yeah, I’m so weak without Him…in fact I’m nothing without Him. And so many times in life, no matter how hard I try to do what the Spirit has said. It just not “turn out right” and it hurts!!...It’s hurting so bad~ If you realize I said “turn out right”…I means the way I want it, or I expected~ See the Spirit guide us the right way, but our minds switches so fast~ Ya I want to help my dad but I lose my patience to do so... Ya I want to worship the Lord, but I more focus on how I sing or what I can said even what’s I’m am trying right now…to impress people… Ya I want to be a youth pastor but somehow I want to be millions too… Ya I want to forgive...but maybe not this time, well…not right timing~Ya I want to serve, but I just want to “do something big~”… Ya so many times it comes to me… All these things, don’t we sometimes tempt to switch our mind as soon as God “telling us what to do”. Kinda like the son decide to honor his father, but when it comes to time doing it, he switches his mind… *“No~ That’s do it my way~” But in the same time you know...you know what’s God want you to do before you switch your mind~ See, to be honest I do that…a lots Lol Ya…not a good thing to do~ And it hurts while things don’t turn out the way “we want it or we expected it”… Do you know how God work through us through His Words? It is like whistling between the fresh & the Spirit, it is like cut you open…ouch it hurts Lol But that’s what makes you growth in Christ!! Jesus had done this, he came in human form and been tempted by the devil. But He has Faith in God, and he overcomes the temptation!! I might not be what I want to be, but thanks God I’m not the person I used to be!!*Yeah~ isn’t time to start living our life with God? No more about ourselves~ It not about me…it is all about Him!!!! It is not my own strength that I’m saved…it is through the Grace of God…it is not my own strength that I’m here today in this place… It is by the Promises of God… it is not about me trying to impress people *with pretty words* But through the POWER of the Living Words… It is not about me being a hero as a youth leader, but by the Love of God we might make ever-lasting friends & bring Life Changing!!! Can you understand now? I used to prayer and prayer…so many times* I know there is time we need to ask God* But there is time we put too much focus to ask God…oh just today, show me Lord...Oh~I want this Lord, I want this Lord…But as I realize I don’t need to ask for those things* it is already given to me…God had not give me what I “want”…*that’s might not be what’s you really want I would said Lol* But He had “make” me what He want me to be~ Abraham is not that great without those “cool miracles eh Lol” Ya~ but he had something more than that, I think it is not the miracles itself is great~ I think it is His Faith in God, that’s so great~ That’s what make Abraham great!!! All the people in the bible…they’re nothing, they will be unknown if they don’t have Faith in God!!!

So now, what’s I’m missing? I can answer you…nothing but Faith~ not just little faith… But Faith In the Living God~ You lack nothing in our Lord Jesus Christ!!! All you have to do is simply trust, trust God ~ He can change you, and keep working on that, He can do great things in your life, don’t give up, because He never had given up on you!! He can, when everyone said you can’t!!

So Come & Listen, Come and walk with me, follow me~
As I walk into earth to eternity, I found myself rest in You…

I pray for you as you reading all these, you’re not getting the knowledge of it, or how it sound great *feeling* but by the Power of the Holy Spirit, you might growth deeper Love with God and your relationship with Jesus!!

Heart of Worship~

I have been a lot of things….

I was unsure…

I was confused…

I was unfaithful…

I was broken…

I was lost…

I was so blind…

Be still…You are God~

In time of troubles, you called out to me~ Yes, once again Lord!

You’re the one take me as you found me, and my trust in you~

Everything in me…consume me like Fire~

Let’s rise up and worship our King!!

Let’s stand on your feet, let’s rejoice and be glad!!

Let go of everything in minds*, Let go on everything issue in life…

I came… Yes, I just simple came~ so… what can I say…? What can I do…? But offer this heart Oh God~ I understand, even in time I been driven away, I know it is not about me….I don’t want this life to be “just” me, so take it~ Do you understand now Andy? I knew Christian Life is really not that hard* eh…It is impossible~ So Stop “trying” to be a “Christian”!! Just “simply” be one!! I cry out to you Oh Lord, so many times again and again, why wouldn’t I know by now? It is not about anything I done…it is not about who I am… It is all because of my faith in you~ Yes…Lord nothing more or less, caz I can not give anything worthy to you… but this heart of worship~

The Heart of Worship by Matt Redman

When the music fades

All is stripped away

And I simply come

Longing just to bring

Something that's of worth

That will bless your heart

I bring you more than a song

For a song in itself

Is not what you have required

You search much deeper within

Through the way things appear

You’re looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship

And it's all about you

It's all about you, Jesus

I'm sorry Lord for the thing I’ve made it

When it's all about you

It’s all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth

No one could express

How much you deserve

Though I’m weak and poor

All I have is yours

Every single breath

It is not about the music or how it sound like…it is not about how much you know about the bible… it is not about being a church goers or religions… it is not about “your” ministry…it is not about all these… More I know you, the more I realize how hard I try to let go of these things in mind…just let me understand what’s in my heart Oh God~ For my spirit is willing but my body is so weak Lord~ There is nothing worthy I can give you, but once again…I gave you this Heart of Worship, For you are my God~ You are who you are…Be still… It’s all about you Jesus!!

Consuming Fire~

I thinking these days I been looking for an answer~ I think it is “hidden” in my heart…one of those days again eh~ You been waited and waited… not much had happen, you been looking for something new, something refresh. Ya…just like lighting up a fire in the darkness. Speaking of Fire this week, the Consuming Fire from above~ In the bible talked about Moose, he saw a burning bush, and have an encounter with God. The Burning Bush became the turning point of Moose’s life. Yeah, everything is different with God. It is the Fire that burns in us. The Consuming Fire of God that keep us from living this godly life. In life it is so easy to off focus from what’s important, let’s keep the fire burning again~ I think of how I fall into the trap and not seeing the fire burning, ya it is not good to hide your light if what’s in your heart, the fire is burning~ I believe there is a fire burning deep in our heart, the desire to know Him more, to do His will and to serve Him… we’re all hungry for God, yes more and more, each day…let’s this fire keep burning, let’s not let the wind & waves in life put out our fire, for this is not just a flame of earthly, but the Consuming Fire from Above~

Year 2007 Statement~

I think it is good to encounter with your friend, share your dreams, goals in life specially in the starting of new year! So ya…Here is some of my goals & Statement

• To Love more passionately through Jesus Christ~
  
• To forgive more merciful through the Amazing Grace~
  
• To renewing the mind-set through the Living Words~
  
• To know God more through the Promise He had for us!
  

Taking the step~

I think of the new year~ I think it is a season of taking step again, the past months I would said "Really Dry Time" on my own, but the more I come to God, the more I fill with that Living Water again~ Yeah, it is so easy in life… off focus on what’ really important~ I think that’s what I learn *still learning everyday* ~ Just speaking of this "whole school thingy" I been going through, over and over again, I think of going into bible college…it had been waved so many times, more and more I can tell I speak of it a lots~ "Yeah I plan to go to bible college…yeah I’m going to be a youth pastor, yeah I want to start a ministry" All theses came out my mouth very often~ On and on my parent were both confuse, they’re separated long time ago, but went it comes to "school thingy" they both think I should finish my university first, first I’m like so against it~ No "I don’t want to do it because I don’t know wt to take in U" That’s my answer, and more and more I said, "Okay I really respect all these people suggest but I still want to go to bible college" My mind across, "Yeah I know it is a patience thingy, and it is written in my heart to honor my parent as the Words said~" But to tell the truth I don’t really want to go that way, I still want to go to bible college, but again, I know it is not the right moment and really not possible with the financial problem here…so many people had told me to go to bible college after, listen to my heart, I know how I love my parent, ya I might not have a good relationship with them but it doesn’t change the Love comes With me, I can not deny the fact that I need to honor them by going to university, and next would be my mind-set again, see that’s what take me a few months to decide~ I know how bad I manage things and making decision in life~ But that’s when I need to slow and listen to God~ So I spent days talking to God~ I know surely going to bible college is in my "heart", it is deeply burning in my heart, but not in my "hand" this moment…and more I think of it, I know I’m not ready for it… "It is good to build a good foundation before you do anything" I been asked before, "So Andy, what’s your relationship with God now?" I’m shock in these days, caz I can not really answer that…Ya I more focus on "things" happening in my life right now, than really got to build that relationship with God… Yep...I been here, it is like one of those falls. As I know in my heart, but so easy to come out of my mind eh~ To be honest, "bible college, youth pastor, money, family, ministries…" All these will fade away while I died, but the relationship with God will last forever~ Didn’t we forgive it sometimes? Didn’t we hold back from knowing him sometimes or maybe there is area in life that make us off focus on Him~ I know the answer again, Okay…I will honor as you comment, to honor these people I love!

"As I delight in you, you will give me the desire of my heart!!"

Renewing the mind~

On the other hand I think it is something I been working on~ The renewing of the Mind-Set~ I think everyone of us had to go through some area of our life that we kinda take a step back and refuse to change, and to me I think of my mind is like that sometimes~ If you understand the "differences" between the Soul and Spirit, well that might be confusing Lol That’s see, while you got save through the Grace of God, His Salvation promise to give you the Spirit~ *It is from God* Yeah that Spirit lives in You~ But really that’s the very first thing God "begin" His work in you~ It is one thing you getting save through Salvation, and it is totally different thing you got to save your Soul *That’s wt’s in You* too~ in the other word "Spirit" is given to you from God, but now you gonna to renew your mind to save "Soul". See, The Work of Salvation is a "finished" work and Jesus had done that for us, we can not doing anything to change that~ But, "With us"…God had a whole lots to do in our life~ And one of the biggest thing in my life is renewing the mind~ Since I got save, I had change a lot in so many different way, but my mind is not willing to change, so it is like fighting inside hard~ To tell the true, I never think I had some area in my character, ya so many things I been through…I’m like "Oh man~ It is really who I am *Having a mind-set like that?*" I think there is part of our Walk with God, by renewing our mind-set~ And That’s from reading the Words & Building relationship with God~ Well guys, That’s my goal of 2007, Renewing the mind-set~

Life of Abundantly~

Oh well, Haven’t type here for awhile Lol So…The first week of 2007 just went pass~ I think of a lot of things happening in my mind… I think of the 2006, there was moment of growing, there were moment of "dry time", just thinking about it...I realize there were a lot of areas I need to improve~ I think I had use the term "let-go" before, ya I "let go" a lot of things this year… but I know this is not how God works in our life~ I think the world said, "You got to give up something so that you can "trade" something back~" But God did not do such trading game, you did not have to trade for it, in fact it is given to you freely, God will give you everything you need as you open your heart to receive~ *Here I’m not saying you don’t need to work hard or sit and waiting for the blessings* It is said in the bible that lazy people have no favor in God’s Kingdom…* But what we need to understand is~ God is a God of Giving!! Yes He gave freely, generously~ And I think it is important to know He love us so much He given everything to us even his beloved son~ Jesus said, "I have come that they might have life, and that they may have it more abundantly" (John 10:10) Yes, he didn’t just come to give you enough to "hang on" to "get by"…He given everything, and it is a life of more "abundantly"~ Abundantly, which simple means fullness, wholeness and fulfillment of Life~ Yes, it is not that you can’t success in life with your own, but God promise His people with an "abundant life", and the true is~ There is nothing, ya~ never compare to being in the Present of God!!
I don’t think you have to play the one trade one game with God, I think it is a choice of moving on~ It is not that God don’t want us to receive wealth, healing or solving any of your problem, but you got to understand you’re have to do your part too~ So what is it really? Simply answer, To trust~ Yes, God promise a Life of Abundantly and you need to trust Him that going to given to you as you move on~ Yeah God is saying, "Come on that’s moving on~ There is so much more to see in front of ya, I had plan for ya~" It is a time of new year, it is a time of changing, in fact…we should be changing every new day eh~

"Delight in the Lord and he will give you the desire of your heart~"

New Year Eve~

To tell the truth I don’t used to celebrate New Year before~ back to the old days people do the count down thingy, but I think it is too crazy to be there, and there is not much for me to do, often I just stay home watching TV, ya sometimes is with family, or some relatives…most the time I will just watch the screen, and people will shout 5…4..3…2…1~ Anyway, my memories of New Year Eve is like that for a long time, and the new delight would be in Canada, I think I spend my New Year Eve. With the School family, it was really cool, well.. way better than staying home~ I think it is a change of mind-set, and the years spend with God had really change me how I look at things. So overall, I still think it is kinda of amazing I got to spend my New Year Eve in Sydney Australia~

Some church people got an open field to watch the firework at night, so we all meet at the house close to the church, we got about five cars I think, and we drove to the Hills, there were so many people there, and we’re not even at the city side, to tell the true I don’t really know where I am Lol Anyway, all I know is we’re on the other side of the sea, it is such a good view, we can see the bridge from distance. I think one thing really catch my attention is that~ ummm why is it a hander on the bridge and there is a diamond in the middle~ *You going to ask, what’s your talking about Andy?* Oh we should check out the picture Lol Well, it is great to have so many people from church celebrate New Year, it is kind of funny overall~ After the show, we walk back to the car, caz it will take forever to wait for the bus~ on the way I got to know more people, in fact the whole night I’m like "Hi Hi… How is going..~" On and on~ Lol We walk kinda slow, two ladies and Helge~ Somehow I start sing my random songs, yep~ pretty random but it was fun, I can flow away the things in mind and worship~ We catch up other people and we plan to go to the beach and watch the sun rise~ Yep that’s the girls idea Lol Anyway, we got to wait for five other people that waiting for the bus, so we drive through to the gas station and wait, on the way we turn we find out that’s an "One way" street *we drive in the wrong way street* And the police is like in front of us~* wonderful~* "Oh no", we stop the van and it is kinda funny how everyone start to panic and shout "reverse"~ But our friend’s car*it is a really little car so it is hard to see from the mirror*it is stop right beside us so it hit their front a little bit~ opps not a good idea~ the police came and ask for data, Michael couldn’t find his license…well, the police said you’re lucky that’s your friend’s car, and we were so glad just got a warning *That’s would really cost the lose of license* Well, Praise God didn’t really cost any big damage and no one got injured Well, the other people came and we got some food and hit the road~ Well, things not always it seem Lol It wasn’t a beach, but it is more like a park near the ocean, it is really cool I think*it was the Sydney National Park* , we went up to a open place~ It is like 4:30am and some of the people plan to sleep for a hour. I just sit near the edge there, just looking at the sea, and looking up to the sky…I hear the sound of ocean, the blue light sky~ Think of the year of 2006, ya~ just one question to ask myself, "What is my relationship with God?" Remind me a lot of things, I want to know~ I want to be sure~ It is not enough, I want to know more and more~This is really what I expect for the year of 2007… To know God in the way I never had before~

It is the beginning of a new year~ The beginning of a new season~ As the sun rising, We pray to you~

Year 2006 Review~

Ummmm year review eh~ I don’t really do that often Lol But I think it is good to look back and make a better year…to encounter with you guys together with God~

Well well well, 2006…To tell the true, it seem such a long year~ The beginning of the year… I think that’s was during the middle of Western High School year, I was like going through some struggles… I remember how I go through everything by myself, depression…disappoint, fall & trap by my own thinking, ya it is like not a good experience~ But look it back, every path I take, I had been growth so much…I think you heard people said, "Follow God, you will gain a lot of things" I think this is not a good mind-set, I don’t think we should look at the result, Here I’m not saying we don’t look at God’s promise to us, but I think it is important to know what it means to carry this cross~ It is great to rejoice when God given you blessings, even in time of sorrows, and suffering, remember this is part of following Christ~ Overall, I think I had really been growth in some many different way, first would be learning to be focus on Christ, I think this year I been really off focus on what’s the world flows at me than listening to God sometimes, but it is so important to know where to focus…the more I follow God, the more I let go of other things. Second would be learn to be patience, I think there is so many times I try to hurry of everything, well God’s will is perfect and none of us can add or change it, I think it is clear to me, the more I know Him, the more I learn to slow down and listen, listen to the God~ I think it is also a year of changing mind set, I’m really nothing without God, and I don’t want to do it my way anymore, I want to do it his way…I think of the relationship with God, I think how I have confidence and strength when I follow, built relationship with Him, and there is time I been driven away from other things, but still I come back again because of His Grace, I been down, I been hold back but He rise me up…Not because who I am here, but just as who He is~ He is my Lord my God!! I find out one thing that’s very true, I don’t remember the anything but the moment I spend with God, and the glory he had show to me~ I believe the Year of 2007 would be an amazing year, and I want to know God more and more, in the way I never have before~