Saturday

It's Saturday afternoon, I'm sitting in my room. Looking out the window, it been a sunny day like the past few days. I slept all the way through the afternoon after three days working at the garden. There is only a week or so till Conference 08. I been located to the coffee cart, ya the whole week I'll be making coffee. I remember last year about this time, me and my friend both thinking abut the further and how it would make the different in people's lives through this conference. The story turn out we're both sick and didn't even make it through the whole week. It didn't turn out the way we think, like many times... I think of this year how I make my decision to come to college. How I been challenge. How I make many mistakes. But overall, I see God lead me through every trials. Knowing He is Able and as always... coming back to the Heart of Worship.

Monday Night

Sitting in the living room,

Today is a slow day, didn't do much... In fact I didn't really slept the night before. Just thinking, just wondering the whole night. And when I realize it is like 6am in the morning. I got up and read the blog on Passion 08, they just been to Paris.. and it is amazing to see the God-Movement happening in Europe. The local pastor said, I have never seen anything like this happen before...

Then I gone back to Sleep Lol

01:30pm,

I got up and finishing my list of assignment. Got to Church. Do my life course Set up

It is silent... Raining again....

The Lord is My Light and My Salvation

Waking up early today... well in fact I didn't really slept, lying down in the living room... thoughts coming around and around... my house mate keep leaving that hall light on, i start to get crumby about it lol you know how when stressing is on, every little thing seem to mean the whole world to you... ya so that's how I felt like.

Reading Psalm 27 this morning, it start out with "The Lord is my light and my salvation, who shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, Of whom shall I be afraid?" Yes there is a lot of things happening around me, within me... But I need not to be afraid, I trust you in this season. Knowing God is on my side, and He will guide my path

Holiday....

Today is a public holiday... I heard it was the Queen Birthday or something lol

Didn't really do much. Ya there is still homework to be done...

So slept in, work on assignment, kick around the soccer ball...

We went to Gonz house and watch a movie

Come back, checking on internet... sound pretty boring

Take a bike ride, and come home again...

Ha even the slowest day is good with you God. I can not forget what you had done in my life.

Greater things is yet to come... We will see it through~

Don't Lose Heart

Today is Sunday morning, I walk in the 8:45am Service first time for a long time. Honestly, there is still a bit bitterness in me, I hardly getting my mind around... Seeing the host, and faces I know, sadly to say I'm a bit afraid... I can sense the distance (Not long ago I been notice to be remove from the Hosting Team) Timeless of praying and praying, decisions and decisions. Still the moment I walk in the church. I felt falling apart. Fighting everything that going on in the mind, I sit down at the side. I know very well the decision had been make to submit and honor whatever God is given.

It is not easy, when I know how much I loved the House of God...

I believe God heard my prayer, and the message of this morning delight numbers of people. Pastor Brian started out his topic "The Dangerous of Losing Heart" It had been said, You can take and receive heart but the bible also said you can lose heart.

In Hebrews 12:3, it said " Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."

We as people of God need to know and aware the possible of losing heart. It is easy to lose heart when you allow people and situation to effect your view. Be careful who you listen to, and whom you allow to speak into your life. We should not effect by when the world changing (Interest rate, tax rate or economy) but we should rise up to be the People that influence the lives of others. We need to live in His Word which can cause us to rise up and guide this very heart God had given to us.

We Do Not Lose Heart!

Because the Moment you lose heart in any areas of your lives, you are giving your lives openly to the enemy.

What area in your life you start to lose heart?
Don't let that to be the blocking what God had given to you!

WE NEED TO RISE UP, TAKE HEART!

Power of Honor

There will be a Time, You need to put Honor first
Even when things might not seem to be easy....

I been thinking about Honoring,
I believe this is Power in Honoring

The Bible said,
Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.
Philippians 2:4

I know it is easy to preach it,
It is very hard to say it and live it~
Specially when I'm in the mid of storm right now....
with all these mountains ahead of me,

Where is the Honor of people?
Where is the Honor of things given to me?
Where is the Honor of Me as a Man of God?
Where is the Honor... When everything seem to against you?

How do I respond to that?

I remember when I first been asked to join into a connect group
How I dislike my leader at...
How I don't get along with the people
How the fact that they all older than me....
How I seem to feel distance,
I don't agree at all, I don't feel right
Sound like is all about me... ya it is

But God taught me well.
I learn to submit, I learn to Honor
I think of how I had grow as a leader because of that
I think of how I go through a lot of troubles... still standing
I appreciate all the people that lead me forward~
Just want to say thank you!

The Month of Miracle

June is known as the Month of Miracle. Every year in the time as this, our church will have what we used to call "Miracle Offering" I remember last year I give my giving "The Largest Giving I even given out" now I think back, this very year why I'm in college is that harvest of offering. This year been a hard year, too much to mention with my stupidities as the result of where I at now... But this month seem to be very special , First I really need a miracle right now.
I want to confess here, so that you can know when it does happen....

I got a negative bank account...
I don't know what going to happen in this coming two months...
and I just been told I'm remove from my team I'm part of...
Things doesn't seem right at all...

The very truth I don't have nothing... but only God can do- A Miracle

I can tell you how that feel like....

Every voices is speaking evil against people around me...
Every plan I can think of... how to fix it with my strength
Every time I sense God coming in and breaking down the wall
Every pray I can flow out in Heaven Realm... I told ya is War going on there

My conviction keep speaking... What is your respond then?
There is a simple prayer.... God I need help

Only God can do the Impossible~

I thankful for people in my life, you guys are amazing
All good things in life flow through relationship...
God bring new people in your life... from old to new
Unseen potential can be unlock...

The Heart of God

In the middle of troubles...

we will sing,
we will cry out to you.

Give us your heart Oh God...

Give us your heart Oh God...

Break my heart for things that break your heart

Give me your heart Oh God...

When darkness comes...

I will prayer,
I will bring praise to you.

Give us your heart Oh God...

Give us your heart Oh God...

Break my heart for things that break your heart

Give me your heart Oh God...

For the broken Lord...
For the lost ones Lord...
For the fatherless Lord...
For the weak Lord...

Give us your heart Oh God...